有點害怕自己 lose my grip on life

覺得我和別人的距離越來越遠。不想和人交談。最好你不要找我，我也不要找你。
很怕見人。連朋友也怕。是，怕你們。人生的一切實在太微不足道。今天知道你如何如何，明天也還是要變的。

There is solitary in my life lately. I am not willing to talk to anyone and I'm not able to talk to anyone. I am afriad to meet anyone including my friends. It is surreal to know every little bits and pieces about you because things change so quickly that you would not even be able to catch a real grimpse of it.